As I've only posted three times in the last two months, I feel a bit silly writing a post to say that I'm going to take a hiatus from blogging. But I'm doing it because this time I've made a positive decision to take a break, rather than just thinking that I should post and then not doing so, (which has been the case for quite some time now). I seriously considered stopping altogether, but was quite surprised at how strongly I found myself not wanting to do that. Even though I haven't blogged properly in many months, I still see a small part of my identity as being someone who blogs.
I thought about why I haven't been posting and why I don't want to start again right now. It isn't because I'm fed up with blogging. I enjoy writing posts, reading others' blogs and commenting, and, even more, I love feeling part of the community that exists in this corner of the blogosphere. It's simply that I just don't have the energy at the moment. I realize how lame that sounds. I know there are people who are far, far busier than I am and who blog prolifically. I also know that in the past I could have found time to blog even if I were 5 times as busy as I am now. It's just not the way things are for me right now.
After three very difficult years (first with depression, then physical illness), I'm beginning to piece my life back together. It's going well. I'm slowly catching up with friends who have been neglected for far too long, I'm exercising regularly, I'm eating healthily, I'm (slowly!) making progress with my research, and am beginning to cross off tasks that have been sitting around on 'to do lists' for far too long. I really am getting there, but it's gradual. I'm trying (and this is very hard for me) not to overextend myself until I feel that I'm on top of things again. This may just take a few weeks, or perhaps a few months, I don't know. I need to regain my confidence in my abilities. I also need to make sure that I keep getting better physically. Once I am feeling more in control, Pink Cupcake will most definitely be back! I just didn't want to grow to hate blogging because it was one more thing that I felt guilty about or didn't have the energy to do.
In the meantime, I'll still be logging onto bloglines each day to avidly read your blogs. If I don't comment much (as I haven't done recently), please don't think I'm being rude or disinterested. That's not the case at all...
See you on the flipside. :)