Okay...

...So it seems like I'm just not ready to write (about anything really) . As I said a couple of posts ago, I wanted use the blog to write about and process all the things that I am dealing with right now. I still want to do that, but I'm just not ready to yet. I don't feel ready to write about all the big things, and I can't get my head into little things and more frivolous stuff. To be honest, the main thing is that I've simply had enough of not knowing what's going on medically. My scan seems to have ruled out gynaecological problems (I just got the results today), but given that I've had pains/tenderness in so many disparate areas of my body, the doctors now want to check out some other things too. I'm just sick of tests, appointments and being poked and prodded by everyone. I want to think about something other than all of this, but I can't. I'm glad when certain things are ruled out, but in some ways, I'd rather they just find something very solvable wrong with me, so that I can get better and get on.

Until then, I don't think I'm going to post much. I'll probably post occasionally or do the odd meme, but I don't know. I'll definitely still be reading and commenting on all your blogs - that is one of my greatest sources of distraction from all of this - but I just don't need to be making myself feel bad about the fact I don't want to write right now. Thank you again for all of your support recently, I have really appreciated it so much (and I'm sorry that I kept you all waiting after my previous post...). This little corner of the blogosphere has provided me with more support than I ever imagined. I'll be back, but until then see you over at your places... :)

Waiting...

I'm not very good at waiting, particularly when I want to get something over with as soon as possible. So I'm feeling a bit antsy today, because I have to go to the hospital for a scan at 5.15pm and it feels like it's been forever since I got up this morning. I haven't been productive in the slightest, and there's no reason for me not to have been, except that I suck at being productive when I know that there's something I have to do later in the day that I'm not looking forward to. It's so silly and it just makes me frustrated with myself.

Oh well, only 2 more hours to go...